Often, I sit and contemplate the will and plan of God, and how I fit into that plan. Not from the standpoint of what God is attempting to do through me and sometimes despite me; but my attitude and focus on how my life aligns with His plans. Do I get so self-absorbed that his plan is no longer a priority or concern of mine? Although I say it does, do I really mean it when compared to the way I choose to live my life? It’s easy to do. I have discovered, if I am not careful, His plan can easily get pushed to the “back burner.” Sometimes, I find this to be a major weakness; and a powerful tool in the hands of the evil one. Maybe it’s because as mortals we are focused on living our mortal existence, which often contains mega-doses of self-gratification, self-absorption, etc. This is a hard deep look for me because sometimes I don’t like what I conclude. The real question is why don’t I long for that which the disciples, Paul, and others did in regard to how God fits into my life? I often want to blame it on the times. That things are much different today, and it’s almost impossible to live like they did with such a singular focus on God. The reality of this thinking is futile because I know I am only fooling myself. The times have little to nothing to do with it, however the pride of life has everything to do with it. If this is the case, should I be surprised if Jesus should say, ”Depart from me I never knew you?” Maybe not. I know this all sounds rather grim, but today this is where my heart has taken me. As we study the word of God, if it doesn’t create a desire for deep reflection, then is it really penetrating our outer being? If not, should it surprise us if spiritual growth ceases? The focus of every Christian, every person who has given their life to Christ is to hear Him say, “Well done good and faithful servant;” anything less should be unacceptable. I pray we all allow the word of God to impact our hearts, so that our lives reflect the God we love and serve.