As I begin the new year, I have a desire to do an honest assessment of who I am in Christ. I have determined that in order to be truthful, I will be required to look deeper than what many see on the surface. Therefore, I must be willing to look into the dark places in my heart where the ugliness lives. This is hard to do because we always want to believe we are better than we really are. If I were to be judged by man, this would only require a glance, and I would walk away feeling good about myself. But, when I think about a sovereign God who knows the actions and thoughts of the heart of all men (and women), I know he will see things in me that I dare not look at myself. However, the only way to be honest in my relationship with Jesus is to lay it all out on the altar and allow God to cleanse me. I know the phony will not “slip” past the discriminating eye of God, so I have gone on a quest. I have asked God to reveal my true heart to me. To show me all the areas in my heart that disappoint Him. I am fully aware, at the outset, this is not going to be either pretty or fun. But, isn’t that the point? It is to be neither. The goal is to be honest and revealing. Perhaps I am not alone and there are others who also would like to go on such a journey with me. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we all went on a heart cleanse? As we endure the winter months in anticipation of the new life that comes in the rejuvenation of spring, so I too look forward to a new heart which will carry me to be more like Jesus.